Day 90. Here we go! The age thing doesn't bother me in the least. It never has. I like getting older, most of the time it seems things get better. I have let go of a lot of things that don't matter, with every passing year. Of course, there are things that aren't so pleasant about aging, like having wrinkles... everywhere...I have wrinkles on my knees! Who knew that could happen? I am not crazy about wrinkles, but then sometimes I realize that most of the ones on my face have come from smiling and laughing, so that is a good thing. Even if I wanted to do something about it, I am too chicken, so I am coming to terms with the fact that I am going to look like one of those wrinkly apple faces and I just need to learn to accept it.
I started a new book last night in preparation for today, "You are a Badass, How to Stop Doubting Your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life". How did I stumble upon the perfect book to start this journey? Well, I was talking to my sister, Mary Clayton about getting healthier and she asked if I had read "10 Reasons you feel Old and Fat". Um, NO! because I don't feel OLD or FAT, thank you very much for your concern though sis!
I was checking it out on Amazon anyway, just out of morbid curiosity, I saw that I would have to give up sugar- which is NEVER going to happen, I don't care how bad it is for you. I have given up diet cokes, soda of any kind, smoking and have an occasional glass of wine or other adult beverage- so c'mon, a girl has gotta have SOME vices! Anyway, I immediately clicked away from that horror of a book and if you shop on Amazon you know they show you other things that you might like. So this book "You are a Badass..." pops up. It has nothing to do with feeling "old and fat", so why did it show itself to me? Because it is EXACTLY the book I needed. God, The Universe, whatever you want to call it is funny that way, things are put in your path and IF you are paying attention, sometimes they are JUST what you need at the exact right time.
And this book is GREAT! I read 70 pages last night. A lot of what I read is stuff I have read before, stuff I already KNOW, but have let "life" push to the background. No more! I am back on the positive path (more about that tomorrow). I just needed this book, at this time, to remind me.
AND, I got another nudge yesterday. I was looking on Instagram and I follow some inspirational people and I saw this:
"You have this one life. How do you wanna spend it? Apologizing? Regretting? Questioning? Hating yourself? Dieting? Running after people who don't see you? Be brave. Believe in yourself. Do what feels good. Take risks. You have this one life. Make yourself proud."
Right time, right words. And I realized when I read this that my first post here was about making my family proud of me, and then that LAST line, "Make yourself proud".
I'm on it!